I have been hurt
Sunday, October 10, 2010, 12:27 AM
I'm going overseas in a couple of days. Mainly Shanghai, 复旦附中。Haven't been blogging lately. busy with EOYs, packing my bag and gah. My life's too boring to blog about, don't you think so. Anyway, I'll be updating my activities in China (I'm going to Shanghai, Suzhou and Nanjing) on this other blog which I can access in China: http://blog.sina.com.cn/lumispir
Blogger is kinda blocked by the Great Firewall of China.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010, 10:51 PM
Tuesday, July 06, 2010, 8:33 PM
Sunday, June 27, 2010, 3:45 AM
How big is your bed?
Single. It's enough for me. I don't like sleeping in big beds with no one beside me.
What are you listening to right now?
How is the weather right now?
It's in the middle of the night. Not quite windy, not quite cloudy.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
The first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
Favorite type of Food?
Do you want children?
Do you wear contacts?
Nah. No courage to risk infections and getting blind.
Have you ever cried over a love lost?
Last Movie you watched?
Hm...Can't remember. Oh! Liar Game: The Final Round.
What were you doing before filling this out?
Pepsi. Ginger Beer. Frappe.
Purple Roses. Any flower that looks nice.
Yep! My family.
Who would you like to see right now?
What color are your bedroom walls?
Have you ever fired a gun?
Maybe once or twice on my brother's XBox. Not that I wanted to.
Do you like to travel by plane?
It's not bad. I like the food and drinks. x)
Right handed or Left?
If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
7-eleven. I want to drink ginger beer....
Are you missing someone?
Do you have a tattoo?
...no. But I have tattoos every National Day, and usually it's the one that says "Made in Singapore".
Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
I haven't watched them since P3 or P4.
Rooftop or in my room.
Can’t live without?
My family, My dream, my 3C products, my religion and 国王！
What are you afraid of?
Are you a giver or a taker?
What do you sleep in?
Tee and shorts.
Stuck on a deserted island, and can only bring one thing?
A boat. Or a helicopter.
To save in a fire?
What is your favorite color?
What are the things you always bring with you?
Handphone, mp4, keys, comb, wallet.
What did you want to be when you were a kid?
English Professor. But I don't want to be one now.
What color are your bedsheets?
I have many sets. Right now they are yellow and orange.
Who do you want to meet?
Do you smile often?
Very often, I guess.
Do you wish on stars?
No. Although it seems to ba romantic thing to do.
When did you last cry?
Just now. Because I was watching a drama.
Do you like your handwriting?
Not really. at least most of the time.
Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
I fainted in my mum's bed.
Song playing right now?
我想要说 by 蔡旻佑
What are you doing tomorrow?
Does anyone like you?
If it's that like, I don't think so.
What’s annoying you right now?
I keep wanting to go to the toilet.
Have you ever watched a movie drunk?
I've never been drunk before.
Are you tired?
...YES. But i'm not going to sleep anytime soon.
What will you do Sunday?
That's tomorrow? oh. Today.
What kinda cell company do you use?
Where were you at midnight on Saturday?
That's 3 hours ago. Reading 陶晶莹‘s 《我爱故我在》
Are you married?
Do you wear any jewelry?
Mainly earrings. The others are only when I go out.
What’s one thing you want right now?
Go to the toilet.
Do you find yourself loved?
Yes. My family showers me with love.
Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
On the rocks. In OBS.
What’s the closest blue object to you?
My water bottle.
What is your natural hair color?
Brownish Black? Okay, it was raven black, but somehow, it turned brownish.
Geography and Integrated Humanities.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010, 12:03 AM
Saturday, June 05, 2010, 8:35 PM
Thursday, June 03, 2010, 4:53 PM
BSP 双文化露营 2010
刚刚从双文化露营 (1/6/10 - 3/6/10) 回来。仍然非常想念大家。这次，我真的认识了好多新朋友，体验到很多不同的活动。原本以为这次的露营就会是一整天听演讲、再演讲，会聊。但是现在感觉并非如此。
Monday, May 31, 2010, 1:23 AM
Sunday, May 30, 2010, 12:48 AM
Monday, May 17, 2010, 8:10 PM
A Happy Journey Starts Like That! - Phua Chu Kang (by LTA Singapore)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010, 10:40 PM
No lowering of weightage
The Straits Times Interactive link: No lowering of weightage
I did mention that the government would never lower the weightage of Mothertongue, didn't I? I told a few people 可是不可以讲太多，不然会破政府的梗。Of course, they wouldn't lower the weighage of mothertongue when they've been promoting it so much. If everyone supported the notion, then the next step the government would take would be some 华语Cool activity. If everyone didn't like it, oh how happy they would be. And while the hoo-ha was going on, everyone would be influenced to think, "oh yeah, mother tongue is really very important! How could they lower its weightage?" Even if they didn't think like that at first, the passion for MT would spread. That time, the government can say, "oh, we wouldn't be lowering it after all, since we never really confirmed and everyone doesn't like it. Sorry."
Thursday, May 06, 2010, 11:06 PM
今天就是如此痛苦。真的很想逃避自己的，但非常感谢那些挺我、关心我的同学。尤其是Junhui, Xiaojing, Yihao, Wanlin. 真的谢谢你们让我在最想放弃的时候，重新获得力量。
Tuesday, May 04, 2010, 8:42 PM
Sunday, May 02, 2010, 10:08 PM
Don't feel sad.
Friends are like handphones. You rely on them, you're close to them, you can't live without them. But when a new or more suitable handphone appears, you will switch to that one the moment you get the opportunity. It's the way friendship is.
Sometimes, when the new one spoils, they might go back to the old one. Sometimes, the new one never spoils and they move on to another newer one. They might never come back. Don't waste your time waiting and source for another phone. If she forgets about you, it's her loss.
I hope you don't go through what I went through, because I know it will hurt you more. And even when you do go through those events (you can read my blog from Sec 1 till now), I hope I can protect you from those injuries. But I have no ability to; I'm not by your side. That's my only regret.
And this English song is for you:
To me, you'll forever be the perfect friend. The friend embedded in my heart forever. This song, Me without You by Ashley Tisdale, is how I feel about you. There's no Fiona without Tiffany. So I hope, when you've lost all your handphones, or you can't decide which one is more suitable, remember, there will always be a landline here waiting for you.
Saturday, May 01, 2010, 11:20 PM
Wednesday, April 28, 2010, 9:08 PM
I'll stand by you always.
Fabian, I was intending to write a poem, dedicated to you. But thinking about what you've just told me rendered me useless in penning any good literature.
I don't know. Is it because our worlds are too far apart that I don't know how to comfort you? Everytime you tell me you're facing with a new difficulty, or when you are feeling down, I don't want to leave you alone. But what can I do? I thought I could do or say things to help you feel better, but I realised that what I've been doing isn't helping you that much.
Fabian, you have a special personality that makes you stand out from the rest. Some people might not see the good in you at first, but that is because that don't know you well enough. I didn't particularly have a good impression of you before, but now we've become friends, I really appreciate your sensitivity. Perhaps it is just because you consider each and every friend very important to you that you get hurt so easily. It isn't your fault; you put in your heart and sincerity to your friends, they just don't know how to treasure it. We're still young and can't deal with situations well. But you've got to overcome them. Or you will continue getting hurt.
You might not trust me that much, but you're the one person I feel comfortable enough to tell everything. It isn't about not seeing you in real life, interacting only virtually. Because if that's the case, I'd have many such friends. You're a special friend to me, and it's because of your sensitivity and your personality, whether you believe or not. Just to let you know, whatever happens, I'll be there for you.
When everybody else doesn't appreciate you, I'll stand by you, always. Trust me.
During the student interview with Mrs Amy, she said that "You know, you're Fiona. To us, Fiona is mature. Fiona can solve all her problems herself."
I didn't know I give people such an impression. (People, this is where you comment.) Do I seem like I can solve all my problems myself? Reflecting on it, seems like for a long time, it's what I've been doing. Whatever happens, I don't like bringing problems home and telling them to my parents, unless it's very important decisions. But I don't like standing alone, makes me feel... like the centre of the universe, trying to comfort people, but with no one to comfort me.
Chinese paper... was hard. It wasn't anything I prepared for and I think I 偏题. Although the 私函about虐待动物, I did prepare for abit of it; the 17岁新加坡海外留学生 who got “影响全球华人”奖,I didn't hear about it, but what I wrote was abit similar to Ping Ghee, who actually read that article, so hopefully it wouldn't fail too badly.
Got back Geography paper. Ser Yeen and JunHui got 1st, with 21/25. I got... what I had initially expected, predicting my marks after doing the paper. It wasn't too bad, 19/25. Minused 4 marks for not doing part (ii) and (iii) for Q2, and 2 marks from 2nd page. Thus, I shall try even harder for my other assignments and pull my grades up again. The real worry is Ching Yan. She's been failing her Geography, and I don't know what I can do to help her. So I offered to help go through her assignments before she hands them in, but I can't guarantee the standard; I'm not teacher. And... XiaoJing, jiayou. You can do it, don't feel too sad. At least you tried your best, that's the most important point.
Monday, April 26, 2010, 9:00 PM
Today... should be quite good. Like Junhui said, the day flew by, for some reason. Perhaps it was because sitting with XiaoJing ends up talking to her for the entire lesson, especially Chinese. I did listen to whatever 康老师 said though, have notes for proof. Just talked at some points in time. Talking in class really needs a certain amount of skill; you've got to listen (or at least pretend to), take notes (legible and useful ones) and even if the teacher sees you talking, get the impression you're 'discussing'.