depresión desesperación I have been hurt
Thursday, October 18, 2007, 6:02 PM

i haven't been blogging lately, ever since PSLE. WHy? too busy watching youtube. Well, i watched Mr. Fighting twice, My MVP Valentine once and today i watched barely an episode of Westside Story and gave up on it. This is a new record for me. I rarely give up on shows and that's only after watching 5 to 10 episodes. For Westside Story and My MVP valentine synopsis, go to and click reviews, then Taiwan then look for the title (reviewed by sukting is the best). The Mr Fighting ones cannot be found on wikipedia nor drama-wiki ( as the dramawiki one is wrong but if it were like what the wrong one says, it would be much more interesting.

Westside story 5566 is in it, but the plot is weird. I mean the romance part is creative but the whole set-up of the story, the gangster part, is just... out of place. Tony Sun is acting as a certain You Ya Yu, the modern Power Ranger or something but his looks just don't fit the part. And his mother, Lan Lan is acted by Zhong Qin and their scenes together is just, irritating. Makes me want to laugh and scream at the same time. When i watched it at first, the person i connected to You Ya Yu was Sun Wu Kong (Monkey God). Funny. Tony Sun is a 'Sun' too! No offense but no matter how much i like 5566, i just don't like that show. It's the most confusing one too. Where do you find good gangsters??? Absurd. (no offence but the roles are taken rather wrongly, in my opinion... no offence)
I'm crazy over MVP Valentine. It's AWESOME! i mean, this basketball show is much more on basketball than HSM. I know HSM isn't focused on Basketball but can't they put a little more? It is also one of the rare times i cry while watching a show. I've only cried 3 times. Once during stairway to heaven (When that guy commits suicide to donate his eyes to his sister),another during Go! Geum Soon, and the third one while watching a show of an orphan. The whole story is great but i think XiaoXi should like Prince more than ChengFeng. The plot is great and the casting of roles is quite good. Poor Prince. If i were XiaoXi, i'd choose Prince. The story is somehow tragic and so sad. I mean, how can someone take all the pain and still survive, giving up his loved one for life just to let his team fight a match??? Tony Sun can sure act well for that. Angela Chang is a great actor too. Especially in Love at Dolphin Bay.
Then it's Mr Fighting. It's SUPERB! My favourite character is Duan Yuqiao, 2nd is Duan Yanhao. The rest are just good. I like Yuqiao as he is rather romantic, blablablablabla and is rather smart, 灵机一动 . I like Yanhao as he is 卑鄙 and very, at that. If i need to do stuff that bad, i'll be like him. My favourite part is when he indirectly caused Yingqi to lose in a competition when he poisoned XiaoKui's lipstick and 'tells' her to kiss YingQi. I mean, he poisoned the lipstick before giving it to XiaoKui and telling her a story to cause her to kiss YingQi, her beloved. Yanhao likes XiaoKui but she doesn't like him!!! I know these stuff cannot be forced but if i were her, i would choose the bad guy, Yanhao. He treats her better than Wei YingQi. Anyway, the plot is fantastic. I think that the tv rates for this show was caused and diminished by the bad impression ppl had on Westside story. MVP aired in 2002, Westside in 2003 and Mr Fighting in 2005. I've never really liked 5566 until now although i crazed over the show last year when it was re-aired. =D
Well, my favourite drama is My MVP Valentine, 2nd is Mr Fighting and 3rd is not Westside Story. You should be able to tell since i didn't like it. My 3rd fav is Goong. The real Goong1 and not the spinoff GoongS. It's like, copy-cat but the story is the same, just it's a guy to become prince instead of a girl become crown princess. That's about it.
P.S. I'm so bored that i've resorted to rewatching Mr Fighting and then MVP valentine so... can anyone recommend any good shows to watch? Pls, i really don't think i can watch more korean dramas unless they're really, really nice. too longwinded, you see and cliche..

Saturday, October 06, 2007, 9:51 PM

Well, my bro and my mum went for a wedding dinner. My bro and i fought over whose going and well, i've not been very nice to him so i gave in. Then, me and my dad ate erm... do you call it lo-mai-kai? vegetarian one lah. But we were still not full so we dug into the fridge and found some uncooked spaghettti noodles, greens, tomato sauce, egg. And he whipped up a dish. It was fantastic. I added ketchup but he added soya sauce so his tastes rather oriental while mine was very westernized. Both taste very good. I had absoulutely no faith that he could cook but then, i was so high i actualy allowed him to and it turned out to be fabulous although it sort of failed. We were trying to cook Mee Goreng but it turned out to be a Japanese dish instead. So in someway, failures in Indian dishes can emerge as Japanese ones instead and taste just as good, if not better.
BTW, my Puzzle Pirates account, Gaelicvixen, already has a crew and if i;m lucky, i could get promoted! YAY! and i'mm much richer. Remember i blogged earlier that i had 700-900 dollars? Now, i have 2k plus!!!! This is so much better than Maple... =D
Lalalala. I

9:23 AM

Today, I woke up early. At about 5.30am. I am like, always waking up early. I just do. I have this, erm, natural alarm clock so even if I forget to set my alarm clock, I will still wake up at the latest 6 every morning.
My dad ate up my breakfast so my mum bough me and my brother an eggtart and pancake respectively. We shared it. We split 50-50.
Then, I had to change my bed sheets and I threw the bed sheet over my brother and instead of shouting, he grabbed it and started sniffing the cloth. He loves sniffing cloth. Pillows, Bolsters, Beds, he sniffs those which he finds ‘fragrant’. He found it nice to smell and wanted to sniff it. My mum objected as he had a sensitive nose and it was raw then. So I dragged it away and he grabbed it. We played tug-of-war then and WOOT! I won! Then remember the pendullum? He was lying on his bad and doing his homework so I swung it on top of him and he tried to grab it but didn’t succed in holding it for more than 5 seconds. It was real funny and we were laughing and laughing. So after that, I put it on my bed and soon, he crashed into my door (and his nose became flat!) and leapt onto my bed and was sniffing like a dog. Crazy. But it was super funny. I wanted to video it but he was like, “HEY! Stop it hor!” so too bad. You can’t see my brother the sniffing dog-cum-human. =D
Chinese was ok lah. Malcolm said there was a question 3 and I was doubting him, saying where got, the instructions say only 2, and then he started laughing and said that I was gullible so I agreed. I was practiccaly freaking out. I am that easy to lie to. SO that’s why I say that I am the only person in the whole world that I can trust. Well, there’s a bright side. At least no one will be able to betray my darkest secrets. Anyway, I’m here, fretting about Science and HMT while my heart is dreaming about playing, playing, playing and going out with friends. There will be my youth club party on Wednesday.
I’m typing this on Microsoft word as my bro is still at home and unless he’s out, I cannot go to blogger so when he goes out, I’ll put a line of hyphens and type some more! I simply love typing though I dunno why. And I’m super bored. Mally says listen to music if I’m bored but it doesn’t help at all so let me advise whoever-who-is-reading-my-blog-of-boredom not to heed any advise from Mally! My bro told me to play so I did but it was still boring.
I think I’ve given up Maple and I am seriously suspecting that Reuben hacked my maple account. From 900K it decreased to 200K so sad… But still. If I still want to play, I’ll play my own account and train it from scratch. She’s only LVL 7… *sobs* But for now, I’m playing puzzle pirates and zwinky.
Typing doesn’t seem to reduce my boredom level, does it?
*yawn* *yawn* *yawn* *yawn* *yawn* *yawn* I must be really bored to do this. That’s trouble of not liking any shows in TV at the present moment, which is, 9:!3 am.
And BLUE DICES (that’s my new ‘swear word words’, My bro’s going out for his music lesson already!!! Yippee Yay! W-O-O-T! =D *grins* Puzzle Pirates, Here I come! I’ve only been playing for a little while and I have $907 already! (they call it pieces of eight but the point ( >* that’s the point, get my POINT?) is I have 907 of whatever-they-are-called-and-shown-even-if-they-are-called-Dorky$) Oh my gosh blue dices, why am I cracking stupid jokes??? I must be bored to insanity! If before the end of PSLE already mad, what’s going to happen to me AFTER PSLE???
Oh well. See, now i'm typing in blogger. Anyway. -.-" What was i going to say? Ah. My mum doesn't HATE Shammah ('Ya, she doesn' t. She DESPISES me' is that what you're thinking, Shammy? =D) She just disapproves of your attitude but character-wise, she thinks you're better than marsiat since i-dunno-when. Marsiat isn't all that responsible. You said she ruined your Princess Diaries book and lost your series of unfortunate events? SHE tore my Harry Potter book and even though i acted nonchalently at school, i cried like hell st home. Harry Potter books are my treasure. Don't be a saddist there. WHen i earn more money (from some jobs... *grins) i'll buy myself another. It's terrible to look at. When she repairs it, it looks like something i got out of the trash. Or some trashy second hand shop when it's first hand. Sh RUINED it. So compared to yours, a forty-dollar-plus-book to 2 ten-to-twenty-dollars-book it's almost the same. I 'forgave' her but i will never forget. I forgive but don't forget. I can remember times when so-and-so did they-know-what they-most-likely-have-already-forgotten-what to me.

Friday, October 05, 2007, 1:23 PM

hihi. i'm like, totally bored. And some ppl say i use like too much. well, i am eaing ice-cream. ice cream is so much better than fizzy drinks and so much healthier. i'm eating organic ice cream. never heard of it? now you have! it's erm... those potong type, inside is red beans with brown sugar and outside is grren tea. all organic!!! and i ate organic lollipop yesterday. weird. my teeth don't hurt that much eating this ice cream. this is my first time eating this ice cream. why am i harping on ice cream??? i feel like changing my blogskin...

Thursday, October 04, 2007, 2:08 PM

To: all my friends

As It Comes To An End

As I sit here in class,
I observe my friends
And look forward to the year
Coming to an end.

It's gonna be sad
To say good- bye.
I'll miss everyone.
I know I will cry.

I remember the day
When I came back
To be with my friends
And get on the right track.

We had so many moments;
Some bad, most great.
I'll always remember the love
And erase the hate.

I don't wanna say good- bye
To all my friends.
I don't want this year
To come to an end.

To: Tiffany

My Angel and friend

I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.

Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.

You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.

I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better 'times' ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.

You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.

It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.

Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!

So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!

To: Shammah


Open your arms to change, but please don’t lose yourself
You are what makes you who you are in sickness and in health
A friendly atmosphere has made you who you are to be
Your character is in charge and will control your destiny

You’ll go someplace you’ve never gone, you’ll make your mark again,
You will reset your standards, and sure will make new friends
As soon as today is yesterday your heart will always give
I hope you won’t regret today, cause your future longs to live

If our paths don’t cross again, I won’t forget this day
Cause I’m afraid of change, I’m scared to shift my ways
My eyes will see things they’ve never seen, but I’ve always been here
The time that counts your moments gone will teach me not to fear.

You’ll look upon your life and see familiar grounds
You’ll hear the call of memories and recognize the sound
All the lives you change will make stars disappear
And as you’re settled down, you’ll realize you’ve never left here.

To: Jun Hui, Nicole, Melody

Dance Upon The Wind.

I wasn't looking for it, but some how it came, and found me.
Before I had a chance to react, it wrapped it's warmth around me.
Like a thief in the night, it has come and gone.
I have nothing, but that vision to reflect upon.

Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.
All day long, in my mind, I walk love's lonely street.
Like a tired man that longs to sit, but just can't find a seat.
Then, there it was again, up ahead, to light my way.

Only to vanish once more, just like all my yesterdays.
Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.
I don't know where I'm going, and where I've been isn't much to speak of.
I just know my heart is always showing, leading me to some far off love.

Just when I give up the fight.
Here it comes to make the bad things good, and the wrong things right.
Only to leave me lost and lonely again.
Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind.

It has a name, I think they call it friend.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007, 3:56 PM

i am like, so lonely. I don't have a confidante whatsoever. Why is that? i tried finding one in people. Tiffany's too happy and smart and too... protected. Shammah, i just don't fit in. Telling her something is like standing on the edge of the cliff. She might just tell Jun Hui everything. Them whispering is rather annoying, i can understand how Kimberly felt. It just shows how much i don't fit in. She's like, two different people. Sometimes nice and sensible, like a friend i can trust, sometimes so... like someone i cannot trust. Jun Hui is a little bit off the board. What happened to the sensible her?
English wasn't all that bad, was it? I got a mark off already. Why am i still smiling away??? Am my right ear is malfunctioning. Everything is against me. Maybe someday i will find a true friend and confidante............(12 dots exactly)

Tuesday, October 02, 2007, 5:35 PM

today was a bore. i died. Good luck to everyone tomorrow..................................
and jun hui, no, i would not cry my tears eyes out if he dies. Serves him right. I don't need to tell you why.

Monday, October 01, 2007, 9:11 PM

There's a piece of news i got from Hong lao shi. There is HCL tomorrow and if you read this, you're in luck. It's only until 2:30pm. =D but doomsday is approaching and the day which decides my future approaches...

7:01 AM

2 more days to Doomsday...
How are you feeling?
Would you keep revising?
Or would you keep playing and playing?
I think you should do some light revision,
Go through all the assessment books you have not done or not marked yet.
And relax while listening to music. Not those which are too erm... metal or rock. Light music.
And i am like, dying of boredom as everybody is too wellbehaved to go online, not that i'm suppposed to. =(