depresión desesperación I have been hurt
Saturday, June 27, 2009, 8:46 PM

Fear, why do humans experience fear? When we are facing darkness, loneliness, loss, hurt or death, why would we be afraid? Fearful experiences have finally let me understand that humans become weak at that moment because we do not know how to face the unknown. Thus, if we ignore those unknown, or even try to befriend fear, perhaps fear would turn from pain to joy and excitement! However, sometimes, these joy and excitement will bring about greater fear. The, we would need more energy, turning these fear into even greater and captivating ecstasy.

Friday, June 19, 2009, 8:23 PM
That toilet.

The floor was wet, with darkly-coloured puddles everywhere. The light flickered, so that there were times when nothing could be seen. The seat was yellow, with moss-covered cracks and water all over it. On the inside, brown globs dotted the sides, accompanied by the occasional dried tissue paper. The drain beside the toilet bowl was supposed to be white, but all I saw was yellow thickly covered by black wet dirt around it. The tap wasn't working properly; sometimes brownish water dripped out before the flow of clear water ran, if it was clear. Brown unidentified marks and white goo which I can only presume is dried toothpaste stained the basin. The colour of the walls was new to me. Was it grey? Was it green? Was it brown? I couldn't tell.

But one thing's for sure. I'm never going there again.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 11:51 PM

Another day has gone. But what have I acheived? Nothing. Just more feelings of emptiness.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 7:42 PM

I'm sick. Been sick for a week. But don't worry. I didn't get a fever so I don't have H1N1. Just that it sucks. Running nose plus a cough. Lucky the doctor's medicine works very well. Much better now. But the medical fees were very high. $77. Whoa. And more than 8 types of medicine. I don't know... it's so expensive. And whenever I keep coughing and continually blow my nose for the whole day, mummy will only say, “你一天用一盒纸巾,不觉得太过分了吗?”

7:41 PM



Saturday, June 06, 2009, 10:35 PM