then for cca, we went to the arts centre, at erm... near bras brasah. and watched this magnificent video of a musical. it was all singapore songs and yea, very good.

afte chatting to Ge, I realised how nice, WaiYee Xuejie is. Not that I never realised that before, but i didn't know she was that nice. Go WAIYEE XUEJIE! When i asked her this bio questions about pork and brine (sorry for typing in third person), she didn't know and went on to ask my Ge. How nice.

Then i ate waffle to keep myself awake. I 'tou chi' in class. x) And I told JunHui that she and Fabian were the only people I could 谈心 with comfortably. Even with Tiffany, I cannot.

All through lesson my head was throbbing with an intense pain, as if someone was whacking my head with a hammer every 2 seconds.

像一个千里外的星光

我对你只能永从远望

深信友谊之诺不是谎

只是仍旧在异处收藏

我等候的诺言与愿望

曾未否让我每次失望

像流星遥远却会追望


你曾拥有友谊之力量

今在遥不可及的远方

遥远的星光只能凝望

你是否把我挂在心上

满天的星光就算给我

一千愿望我只想换你

像过去那么率真荒唐


当我渐发觉你的遗忘

自己如何不失去盼望

星空唯留星尘怎对望

遗弃回忆复燃的希望

眼看俩之间距离扩张

一声你是谁如同心亡

肯定我们未来无星光

We understood each other so well that we could fill up each other's sentences, understood each other with some weird sign languages that we never put a definition to. It was as if we shared thoughts. How I miss having someone who never needed an explanation for everything I do.

Truly, all those times had come to an end. But why? Why to this extent? I don’t want to accept this. I really don’t.

Living each day in the past has strained all my energy. I don’t want to forget all the times we had, I don’t want to leave.

They say that all the memories of childhood friends will never last long. They say that the friends I had will no longer exist. Will they really disappear?

In my heart, I know one day, I must accept reality and move on. But moving on and forgetting are not the same. Aren’t they?

“Friends forever,” you once said. Where are you now? Why do we so seldom speak? Are we still friends after graduation? Are we still friends?

Looking out of the window now, I wonder what you see. Do you still remember me? Am I still in your heart? Or just a fleeting memory? Or a passer-by in your life?

Perhaps, you might have forgotten that song you sang to me one day, saying you would fail the music test. But your voice that day was perfect in my ears, because you are my friend. Maybe I no longer remember what was it that you sang, but the melody flows in my heart, my mind, my soul, forever.

I remember your apologies when you failed to win a computer game for me. But it was okay, the effort you put in was worth losing it anyway. Is that same you still there? Or have you changed?

You might no longer be who I once knew. But friend, remember, whatever it may be, I will always be here. Whatever happens, there is someone supporting you.

This, my friend, is from me, to you.
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I called Tiffany a moment ago to ask her if she had studied bio in rgs, to help me in my bio worksheet. but she said one thing she had never said before. never ever. "Who are you?"

a single tear rolled down the vixen's cheek

Then me and amelia tried out the guitar. She was a bloddy pro. remembering the chords as if you remember ABC! genius. I couldn't play because my nails were too long. For the sake of learning how to play the guitar, I will cut my nails. my precious nails.

History was quite alright, I did know the answers. Let's hope I get an A1. Lang Arts was much much much harder. I didn't know how to do it! everyone wrote that Joe was brave and my points were almost the same as Wanqing's. How creepy is that. Jun Hui joked that maybe we were long-lost twins.

I remember I used to think Wanqing was a domineering, bossy, loud person but then after getting to know her a bit more, she didn't seem that bad. Thinking about it, I think i'm like that too. bossy, domieering, thinking i'm always right, loud, wanting attention, wanting everyone else to do what i want. worse than wanqing. no wonder people don't like me. but people like wanqing. Lucky we still have some very different things about us, or else I would totally lose my sense of uniqueness.

p.s. sorry wanqing if i offended you. i don't mean it.

anyway, i'm chatting with nat. what a memorable experience. i never thought nat was a friendly and easily sociable person at first. but when she remembered that I couldn't actually buy stuff for the class without claiming the funfair money, i was really touched. i mean, no one actually bothered to remember. she did. that's why i agreed to buy the pie. even if i had to use my own pocket money.

p.s. i still claimed it back what.

Perhaps we weren't that close, perhaps I never really knew you, but I believe that the friendship still exists between us, not just a classmate you see everyday. You are my friend, no matter what you regard me as. You shall forever be in my heart.

Don't feel sad that you're leaving, feel happy. After all, you get to understand the brilliant Thai culture better. We may not want you to go, but from the bottom of our hearts, we give you our blessings, and our support.

Grace... bye.

We had Grace's party yesterday. I brought 3 pies. Amazingly, there were left-overs. I think because my mum cut it into smaller pieces for the oversized pie. But it's okay. someone ate them after all.I saw Grace's mother for the first time. She was such a nice lady. Reminded me of Patrick's mother. Of course, Grace is much nicer than Patrick. x) Why do you need to go? Obviously your dad would go. He's going to do like, a job with such high pay! You get free education too and you're richer there than here. But it's just... sad. Although, yea, we've known each other for less than 6 months. But i'm emotional. i just know that i'll be sad. maybe not as sad as graduation but still, you'll forever be my friend.

There were 2 cakes. did we buy both? I don't think so right? I think Grace's mother bought one of them. anyway, both seemed nice but i chose the less creamy one, the chocolate one. The cake part seemed so chocolatey, so soft, like clouds and the cream seemed like soft chocolate with a bit of whipped cream, melting in your mouth and oozing down your throat. Whoever bought that, I love you. The other one seemed... creamy. fatty creamy.

Then the drinks. We finished the leftover bottle of lemon8 from the funfair and a few other types of tea. Well, jasmine acted like a bartender and mixed and matched drinks for rachel and zest. That was so interesting. Potato Chips were also an ingredient. (I tried it myself because jun hui said it was nice and yea, it was.)

But i felt so left out. no one seemed to like to talk to me or something. When i try to talk to other people, they talk for a while and become annoyed. why? is it because we have no common topic? What happened to the people who could understand what i meant without me saying anything? Last time, me and tiffany could just use various weird handsigns to replace one lengthy explanation. Now, even one lengthy explanation must be shortened to "Long story." If i say anymore, they become annoyed and walk away. Is this the humongous difference between nygh and concord? I remember that no matter who I talk to in primary school, they won't become that annoyed (with Shammah and a few others as an exception because they are erm... more mature). Or is it just my problem? Am I too childish or too boring or too... unsociable? I keep feeling that day by day, i'm hiding into my own shell, slowly blocking out the rest of the world from affecting my emotions and smiling even though i don't feel like it. Yea... I'm getting emo-er by the day. i do not like that. oh well. let life be.

Anyway, I also watched Ichi Rittoru no Namida (1 litre of tears). It was so sad. I cried one litre of tears, defintely. And the female lead is so cute. The male lead is not that shuai, Tiffany, but he has a certain mei4 li4. However, I feel that his character is still too weak.