depresión desesperación I have been hurt
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Sunday, February 07, 2010, 11:25 PM
梦想和父母之间

今天,有人问我一个问题:“如果要你在梦想和父母之间做各选择,你会选择哪一个?”

一个人没有梦想,人生要怎么过啊?没有目标地往前走,到底要走到哪里?遇到交叉路口要怎么决定哪一条才是我要走的路?或者停留在原地,徘徊不前进?那么,迟早有一天,全世界的人都回把我遗留下来的。了解我的人就会知道,我的生命力充满了梦想;做商界大人物的梦想,做政治家的梦想,做歌手兼演员的梦想。没有梦想,我就像是一艘小小的船,在太平洋里,失去了方向盘,漫无目的地飘啊飘。没有梦想,我省下的只不过是一个蜗牛壳,区区壳子,没有里面的灵魂,没有里面的蜗牛。

不过,一个人没有父母过活,我又听说过,但没有体验过,也不想要体验。没有梦想的生活,我曾经有过,小的时候,不过,没有父母的生活,我根本一天也没有体验过。对我来说,没有妈咪,或没有爸爸,好恐怖,好痛苦,好寂寞。对现在的我而言,爸爸妈妈是我的全部。除了他们,我省下的根本微不足道。除了死读书,我还会什么?根本少之又少。如果没有爸爸妈妈支撑着我,我也许早就精神崩溃了。因为我太早把自己放入这个黑暗的世界,现在只有爸爸妈妈永远不会害我。

我想了很久,终于说:“我爸妈。”

Saturday, February 06, 2010, 1:43 PM
Flag Day = Slack Day?!

I really don't know why some people do flag day for CIP. I mean, I acknowledge the fact that it is really tiring to stand all day, sometimes under the hot sun, just to get people to stuff coins into a tin can. But it's all for doing good deeds, isn't it? CIP itself is to help the society right? But how come all the students, maybe they are my senior, maybe they are my juniors, whom I see doing flag day, especially around Lot 1 and the MRT station, do not seem to get it?

Some students, hold on to their tin cans like it's all they have, stand beside one lonely pillar and look at passer-bys. Are you actually hoping for everyone to see you and donate like that? Who would. You might not even be asking for donations! Some, get their friends to hold on to their tin cans, or just hold it with one hand, and in the other hand, they've got some kind of junk food, eating/drinking it and chatting happily with their friends, completely ignoring whatever the tin can is meant for.

Some, even more ridiculous, shrink away in one corner, talking to their friends, and when a passer-by like me, a possible donor, looks at one of them straight in the eye, then stare at the tin can, they look at me with a glance that says, "why are you looking at me? Go do your own business." I mean, when someone looks at you, usually one would go up to them and politely ask for donations, sometimes stating your cause (Eg. SPCA) and always with a big friendly smile plastered onto your face. Why would you turn around and back-face possible donors.

Also, when people who want to donate go up to you and put coins into the slit initiatively, why do most of you (Esp. the ones doing today.) give them a look as if it's their responsibility and duty to donate money, and you're still grumbling about them donating too little. Shouldn't you smile and say "thank you" politely at least?

Please, my fellow Singaporean students. Flag Day may be boring and tiring, but isn't CIP supposed to be like this? If you're not looking to help people, but just slacking there, hoping to earn some easy CIP hours, I think that you guys are ruining the MOE's intention of implementing compulsory CIP and making it unfair for those who actually put in their heart and soul into helping others.


Thursday, February 04, 2010, 8:31 PM
Auditioned for Juliet

实在是太棒啦!

我成功了!我Audition成功啦!呵呵。终于,我可以逃出后台这个坟墓(quoth Waiyee姐)跑到台上发挥喽!而且我是《梁山伯与祝英台》的女主角:朱丽叶!mwahahaha. 女主角第一候选人。如果没什么事发生的话,呵呵,Tingyu,我绝对不会让你有机可乘的!

完全搞笑人物,大家敬请期待吧!